I Cannot Serve Two Masters

“No man can serve two masters.” - Jesus of Nazareth 

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I am thinking of the motivations and principles that guide my life. In thinking about this I asked myself “What or who would I be willing to die for?”. The choice to die does an interesting thing to the mind. It makes one think of things greater than ones own life. Is there anything or anyone more important than continuing on? The question is disturbing. How can one choose their own death? Can choosing to die ever be good? 

As I am thinking about this question of death I am observing the nature and essence of death. Death feels so permanent and final. I suppose that is why it disturbs me so much. But surely death is not the end. Otherwise, why do heroes choose to die? As I am contemplating this I am struck with a long series of choices that ultimately leads me to my end, which all men come to. For some, it is a hero’s sacrifice, for others it is desperate suicide, for others it is a cowardly waiting for death to come take them when they do not expect it. Along this line of choices I see 5 questions that lay in my heart, guiding everything I do. 

1. What or who am I willing to die for?

This is the question I have considered already and awaits me at the end of my life. 

2. What or who am I willing to suffer for?

This is the same as the question of the dying, without the finality of ending. 

3. What or who am I will to be inconvenienced for?

This is a more common question, implying the minor suffering of my common choices.

4. What or who am I willing to serve?

This is a positive question revealing that every choice is a kind of service to what is chosen.

5. What or whom do I love?

This elevates the last question to the status of supreme pursuit and ultimate worship. 

How many people have analyzed their choices and know the answers to these questions? I am seeing how each of these questions can be used to help a person reflect on where their allegiances lay. The reality is that every man serves something or someone for we all experience inconveniences, suffering, and death. The choices embodied within those experiences hold the keys to our worship and reveal the object of our love. 

Why Do You Clean Your House?

I am thinking about a very easy to understand example. Today I am cleaning my house after neglecting it for few days. The choice to clean inherently inconveniences me. By choosing to clean my house, I am choosing not to just watch TV, go golfing, or make a host of other choices. Does this mean I am serving the act of cleaning? No. I am serving something beyond the act of cleaning, namely an orderly house, or more accurately named, Order itself. In this simple example, discovered by my own introspection, I can see that the object of my love is not the service, the inconvenience, or the suffering that I experience but the Order which is paid for by the service. Without servicing my home, there can be no Order and without Order, I do not experience that which I love. Therefore, I service my home so that there can be Order so that I may experience the joy of that Orderliness. 

This isn’t to say that every time I choose to clean my house, I am serving Orderliness nor am I saying that Orderliness is the only love I am pursuing in the act of cleaning my house. Surely if I chose to clean my house because guests were coming over, there may be other loves pursued in the choice to clean. I may choose to clean because I want them to experience orderliness, or perhaps I want to honor something in them by putting the house in such a state that indicates great care, thus indicating the degree to which I am willing to suffer for something lovely about them. 

There are darker potentials to these choices too, Perhaps a choice to clean is really driven by a fear of criticism, indicating that my choice is not driven out of service to anything in particular but a desire to have something serve me, since fear is always concerned with gain and loss, not service. Sometimes the appearance of service is really a driven by a desire to be served. Perhaps a very wealthy person is coming over and I wish to do business with him. Therefore I clean the house, dress nicely, and prepare a meal which is unusually above my standard. What does this indicate but that I value this man’s money and power, namely what he could possibly do for me? If I did this for the wealthy man, how might it be different for my poor neighbor? Given that they cannot offer me money or power, might I neglect the house, dress in common clothes, and prepare an ordinary meal? 

A Long Chain of Decisions

Now I am seeing a long chain of decisions, starting with what I love to what I am willing to die for. I see that the most immediate love I have is for myself, that is my own life. In this way, the question really changes in my mind. Instead of concerning myself with what I am willing to die for, I begin to wonder what am I willing to kill for? By elevating my own life above all other values, I find myself following a long chain of choices that begins with “What’s in it for me?”. I am driven to make other things die, so that I might live, to make other people suffer, so that I might not, to make other people experience inconvenience, so that I might experience comfort, and to make other people serve me, so that I might have what I want. I am concerned more with people, and indeed the whole universe loving, serving, suffering and dying for me. I am repulsed by and avoid all forms of service, inconvenience, suffering, and death for all those things are threats to my life. I have no vision for a gain on the other side of service and suffering because I see no value on the other side of death. I cannot see, with these merely fleshly eyes, even the most obvious of truths, like how the Orderliness enjoyed by cleaning my house is valuable in and of itself.

The irony of this blindness is that I am constantly experiencing inconvenience and suffering which all lead to my ultimate death but I am unwilling to suffer the inconvenience of thought long enough to love the knowledge of cause. My life is one long chain of immoral, unethical, selfish, blind choices resulting in misery, failure, loss, pain, and suffering. My reaction to these miseries, however, is not one of introspection. Because I worship my own life and expect the universe to serve me, the experience of even the most minor inconvenience is a catalyst for my own frustration and resentment towards a world that refuses to serve me. In an act of outrageous pride, I attempt to transfer my guilt for trying to live above the laws of the universe onto the universe itself which has acted in justice without exception. I curse life as futile, reality as malicious, and people as evil precisely because I have neglected my responsibility to serve the truths that make life possible and reality benevolent. 

A History of Choices

I am seeing these choices deeply embedded in me, tracing their way back through a long history all the way back to the story of the origin of man in the garden of Eden. There Adam and Eve were told by their God not to eat of the fruit of the tree in the center of the garden. Perhaps this fruit really was poisonous. They had the knowledge that eating it would result in their death. They were not without excuse. Nevertheless, Adam and Eve chose to ignore their convictions which could see the consequences of eating and choose to focus only on the fruit’s immediate appearance. When they ate, they betrayed their knowledge of God’s goodness who served to protect their life and were at once under the curse of their own mortality. Knowing this, they covered their frail bodies and fell from grace. It boggles my mind to think of what unimaginable evil was represented in that choice to ignore the truth, neglect God’s promises, and believe they could evade the consequences of an undeniable cause. 

This choice by Adam and Eve to evade reality was the first step in a long chain of choices that would be the cause of suffering, pain, and death for generations and generations. Humanity has forever since been seeking to regain the favor of God and to wipe away that fatal choice to sin against Him. Consider the story of Cain and Abel, Adam and Eve’s children, who prepared meals for God. God accepted Abel’s offering but rejected Cain’s. Cain had prepared the offering from the ground, which of course cost him greatly. The thorns and thistles of the land did not give up the harvest from the earth easily. Cain was like the one who prepared a meal for a wealthy man but prepared a common meal for a poor man. His offering was merely an attempt to gain God’s favor. When that favor wasn’t gained, what did Cain do but punish the one whom had earned God’s favor, his competition, his brother, Abel. Cain’s worship of himself was revealed in the fact that he was willing to serve God ONLY if God was willing to serve him. How eagerly Cain had forgot, just like his mother, that he was under the curse of his parents. How blind he was in his attempt to transfer his guilt onto his brother, and ultimately onto God Himself. Because Cain was unwilling to be inconvenienced by God, serve God, and suffer God’s judgment, he was driven to kill. Thus the first murder was recorded. 

The biggest lie in history is this: 

God/Reality exists to serve man and is evil for judging him. The exact opposite is the truth. Man exists to serve God/Reality and he is evil for judging Him.

This lie is the source of all murder, theft, superiority, war, lies, Zionism, tyranny, sin, suffering, pain, and death. 

Nature, to be commanded, must be obeyed. Fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge.

This pattern of demanding God wipe out the past, forget the sins of Adam, and return humanity to the ease of the garden is replete with examples throughout the Bible and recorded history. I see this pattern in the grumblings of the Hebrews in the Egyptian desert, in Moses when he struck the rock out of frustration, in David’s murder of Uriah, and in the choices of the Israelites to forget God in order to serve worthless idols. I also see a different pattern emerging during that same time, one that would indicate hope and a reversal of the betrayal that occurred on that fateful day in the Garden.  I see a man named Abraham believing in something he couldn’t see, the promise of God to make him into a great nation. I see that same Abraham remaining faithful to those promises, even to the point of killing the source of that very promise, reasoning that God must be able to raise Issac from the dead, only to be stopped before delivering the fatal blow. I see David, small and meek, trusting in God’s commitment to his own promise, standing without armor before the giant Goliath.  I see that same David, when confronted with his sin after slaying Uriah, humble himself and beg forgiveness rather than curse God for his suffering. I see Shadrach, Meeshack, and Abindigo accepting death by fire rather than betraying their God. I see God keeping his promise to return man to the garden and restore man to fellowship with God in those humble few who choose to believe and see beyond their immediate senses. And I see this pattern becoming a person in the man of Jesus Christ. In Jesus Christ we find a man who was inconvenienced, tortured, frustrated by his friends, betrayed by his friends, and murdered by his government. In all this he chose to serve God and man rather than be served by God and man. Whereas Adam chose to ignore God’s judgement of death for disobedience, resulting in sin and death, Jesus chose to accept God’s judgment for disobedience, resulting in righteousness and life. Whereas Adam betrayed his life by loving it more than God, Jesus saved his life by loving God more than it. Whereas many died as the result of being the child of Adam, following him in his faithlessness, many live as a result of being a child of Christ, following him in his faithfulness. 

The Faithfulness of God

What then is faithfulness? It is the the act of accepting that sin is the cause of our death, dying to that self that caused our death, and believing in the promises of God to raise the faithful from the dead, undoing our slavery to sin and breaking the pattern of endless suffering and death. It is suffering without complaining, dying without cursing, and serving God with joy knowing that salvation is on the other side of that choice. It is cleaning my house to worship the God of orderliness, not to worship the wealthy or the opinions of others. It is the act of honoring what is good for being good, not for what I might gain for honoring the good. Isn’t witnessing goodness being honored enough for me? Would I prostitute the good for my own sin, which will kill me? Would I sacrifice good for evil and lesser values for greater values? Would I attempt to hold God hostage until and only when He is willing to serve me? Or will I lift him up, even with my own choice to die for him, believing in His promises that He will honor my love for him and faith in him as He did Christ, by raising me from the dead? These are the questions that try my soul and fly in the face of a world today which worships self and serves only money and power. 

When Jesus entered into Jerusalem during his last week on earth, crowds lined the streets to be near him and cheered for him as their coming salvation. They saw Jesus as the one who would overthrow Rome, end their oppression, and vindicate their suffering. They saw Jesus as their long awaited Messiah, God in the flesh who had come to serve them. Did he not say himself “The son of God has come not to be served but to serve.”? Little did they know that Hidden within their cheers and hopes was the sin of Adam. On Sunday, Jesus was to the people their conquering king, worthy of all worship and praise. By Friday, Jesus was their object of betrayal and scorn, wearing a mockery of their claim in a crown of thorns and a scarlet robe dripping in blood. Not one among them took his place. Not one among them defied Rome or the religious leaders. How could they defeat Rome if the Messiah couldn’t? If the Messiah couldn’t save himself, then he must not be the Messiah. If he wasn’t the messiah, then why should they save him? Thus the sin of man was on display in their choice to be served above all things and suffer neither for God nor man. Thus the righteousness of God was on display in Jesus’ choice to serve above all things and suffer for both God and man. Without the promises of God, faithfulness is impossible. Jesus then is the first among us to experience the fulfillment of God’s promises though he wasn’t the first to believe or be saved by those promises. He was simply the first to be raised from the dead for his faithfulness to the promise and by his resurrection, we too may be bold in believing that God loves us, not for our sin, but for who we become by the works of faith transforming us. 

I Cannot Serve Two Masters

Today I turned on the Michigan versus Texas college football game. All I could see were people worshiping themselves, serving money, and seeking to avoid the pain and suffering of their sins. From the production quality to the advertisements to the coordination of the sea of Maize shirts among the fans, everything was highly calibrated towards one end: power. The power to make money, the power to gain influence, the power to be seen, the power to open doors, and be famous. The sin of Adam reigns over our world, represented so powerfully in our love for money. What do any of these people do because it is good, without wondering what payment they will get for it? How often do they serve something other than themselves with joy? Couldn’t they analyze every choice they made and draw a straight line to their own ego, their own stomach, and their own bank account? Millions and millions of dollars surrounded that stadium. What outcry would be there if the players decided to not play unless everyone involved, from the fans to the referees to the announcers chose to perform their tasks for free, simply for the pleasure of watching a football game? What outrage would there be from CocaCola, Dr. Pepper, Amazon, and ESPN if the players boycotted all advertisements! Would not these very players, who were cheered by the fans, adored by the press, and elevated by the producers be shunned in an instant! Would this not reveal the sin of Adam all around them, the desire to be served, even at the expense of others? 

Consider now how an unwillingness to be vulnerable is an indication of the sin of Adam. I remember meeting with a pastor once and I asked him to share something vulnerable with me that if I didn’t respond with empathy and compassion, it might hurt a little. He said he couldn’t think of anything but I saw the truth in his eyes. They were racing back and forth in a panic, knowing that one false step and he would betray a lifetime of carefully calculated moves to gain what he wanted. Imagine! A pastor who could think of nothing that would magnify the mercy of Christ! A man who deep down was a faithless peddler of religion, who cared not for the promises of God. This question about vulnerability is a quick and easy was to root out perfectionism and legalism from your self and your company. If someone isn’t willing to confess their faults and sins or the embarrassing parts of their past, they are wearing Christ as a mask and are a wolf in sheep’s clothing.

I am also thinking about our understanding of forgiveness. Of course Adam and Eve sought forgiveness, just as Cain, and just as any one else who is aware of their mistakes and sins against others. Most people are sorrowful when their sins are found out, but they are not repentant. Instead of accepting with humility to judgement of God, or the consequences of their mistakes, these unrepentant grievers seeks countless ways to avoid judgement. To them forgiveness is the license to lie, steal, and kill! They seek to rationalize their sin, forget their sin, cover over their sin, and blame others for their sin. For them their object of action is sharply focused on avoiding the consequence of sin, the removal of God’s favor, or the favor of others. Observe how just the slightest consequence placed on some people sends them into an outrage! Notice how even the hint of criticism or an unfavorable narrative in the minds of others is met with self-righteous vigilance! The father who beats his child for even suggesting he’s a deadbeat or the Israelite who has covered the world in a propoganda machine to monitor and destroy anything considered “anti-Semitic”. What is anti-Semitic to this synagogue of Satan? Anything that threatens the worship, support, and aid of Israel, even noticing crimes against humanity and God! In so many conflicts and in so many cries for mercy, we find this same pattern. Serve me, at any cost! Cannibalism of cannibalism!

As I look into my heart, I see the truth of what Jesus, the author and finisher of my faith, said about what my choices reveal about my love. He said “No man can serve two masters…You cannot serve both God and money.” He also said “How hard it is for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven!”. He also said “The meek shall inherit the earth.” He also said “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth where moths and vermin destroy and where thieves break in and steal. Store up instead for yourselves treasures in heaven where neither moth nor vermin destroy and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.” Do I love God, who promises to deliver me through inconveniences, suffering, and death? Or do I love Money, which promises to save me from these same inconveniences, sufferings and death? Do I serve God or money? Do I serve God or myself? Will I lose my life in order to gain it, or in trying to keep my life, lose it? Will I lift God up in my suffering and death, or die for the sake of money and power? These are the choices before me. These are the choices before us all. 

I am choosing to submit to God’s judgment and believe in his promises as I reject money, and the service it can provide me. I was trusting in God’s provision when I quit my job back in December. I am trusting in God as I default on fraudulent loans. I am trusting in God as I write, speak, and act with little recognition while others are elevated in their love of money and power. I am reminding myself of the promises of God as I am being cheered by a crowd of TikTok fans, wondering what sin of Adam lurks in their adoration. If they loved what I was doing, why wouldn’t they do it to? If they don’t do it, are they expecting me to do it for them? If they are expecting me to do it for them, are they not still in their sins, seeking to be served rather than follow Christ? Time will tell. I am choosing to believe that even if I lose these cases, even if I lose this house, and even if I lose my life, “these present suffering are not to be compared to the glory that will be revealed in me.”

Father, I submit to your judgements, your law, and the suffering that is in reality discipline. I choose to believe that you love me and will see me through any inconvenience and raise me from any sleep. Show me how you are working in my life and please don’t be subtle about it. For the sake of your great name, which is the desire of my heart, for the proclamation of your promises, which is the hope of my salvation, and for the worship of your perfect Son, which is the song of my soul, I am your servant. Amen. 

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1. **Introduction:**

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   - **Content:** Introduces the concept of dying for a cause and the impact of such thoughts on one's life.

2. **The Five Questions:**

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   - **Content:** Lists and elaborates on five key questions regarding willingness to die, suffer, be inconvenienced, serve, and love.

3. **Example of Cleaning the House:**

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   - **Content:** Uses the act of cleaning a house as a metaphor to explore underlying motivations and values.

4. **A Long Chain of Decisions:**

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   - **Content:** Explores how choices driven by self-interest can lead to ethical and moral blindness, contrasting with faithfulness.

5. **A History of Choices:**

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   - **Content:** Examines biblical stories to illustrate the consequences of choices made in defiance of or in alignment with God’s will.

6. **The Faithfulness of God:**

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   - **Content:** Defines faithfulness in the context of suffering, serving, and believing in God’s promises, contrasting it with a self-serving attitude.

7. **I Cannot Serve Two Masters:**

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   - **Content:** Reflects on the struggle between serving God and money, using examples from modern life and scriptural references to reinforce the point.

8. **Personal Commitment and Conclusion:**

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   - **Content:** Concludes with a personal affirmation of faith and trust in God’s provision and promises.

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